So often, we hear people complain about getting older, wrinkles or investing in anti-aging products. When, in actuality, aging is a blessing that signifies all of our triumphs, memories and the magical, crazy, beautiful, difficult roller coaster we call life. I remember entering my 29th birthday. I was nervous about preparing to say goodbye to my 20’s and embracing the 30-year mark of my life. Since that time, i’ve gone through so much that makes me not scared, but thrilled to enter the last year of the third decade of my life. When your health is in question, it truly brings to the forefront how precious life is, and how magical the single universal gift we are each given, multiple times a day, known as breath truly is. So many children never get to experience the teen years, or turning legal at 21, much less the idea of nearing 40. I was lucky enough to have my birthday fall on a Friday, embarking on a 3-day weekend, giving even more time and liberty to celebrate a victorious year.
It started off with getting a tattoo portrait of Talia Joy Castellano. I always get my tattoos done at High Voltage in California, so I was very nervous about the idea of getting a portrait done at home, in Florida, but, after much research, I found an amazing artist named Lily, here in Ft. Lauderdale. Before entering the tattoo shop, I asked Talia for a sign if this was the right thing to do, and the first thing I noticed was there were several portraits that had the blue and pink colors of Talia’s Legacy foundation in them. Then, as I began to discuss ideas for the tattoo, one of Talia’s favorite songs by Nikki Minaj, came on, that I also took as a sign from Talia that I was in the right place. Lily, the artist, went through hundreds of pictures with me, and then visualized and chose the perfect space for the portrait, in between two of my other monumental tattoos. The first one, is the logo for my business, which now gracefully sits right above Talia, and the second one on my wrist that symbolizes the afterlife and is a replica of the butterfly logo for Lisa William’s business, to honor that Lisa is my mentor, and the one who helped me embrace living my purpose as a spiritual teacher, medium, and intuitive. I always wanted something between those two significant tattoos for a longtime but never knew what to get, and now the butterfly sits elegantly on what looks like Talia’s neck, which I think is pretty awesome, because on her bucket list, Talia wanted a tattoo now, symbolically, she has one that is purple, the color for neuroblastoma. The day after the tattoo was done, I keep forgetting that it was there and when I would notice it, I could not stop looking at my arm. Therefore, I would look down, see it, and say, “Hi, Talia,” each time. Now, I’m sure to be known in my apartment building, as the spiritual girl in the wheelchair who talks to her arm. But, that’s ok, because I’m over the moon happy and that’s what counts.
On my birthday, my bestie, Jenn, took me to the Mac store and I got to pick out two beautiful lipsticks and a eyeshadow palette with a gift certificate as a present. I also got my cartilage pierced on the left side, to honor Talia and Mattia Joyce Talia’s big sister. Mattia is such an inspiration as a beautiful young woman inside and out and she is so supportive of Talia’s Legacy and such a sweet friend. I was so excited to have my cartilage done reminding me of their strength and talent with makeup. I had always wanted my cartilage pierced because I thought it looked cool and now, without hair, it is very noticeable, which I love. During this process came to the realization that getting the tattoo at this point in my fight for a cure was very empowering because it allowed me to have something done to my body that is under my control, when so much that happens with my health and to my body from being sick and in a wheelchair, that is out of my control. The same holds true with the piercing.
I have to share with you a miraculous incident that happened during the piercing. Even though the gentleman did it with the utmost professionalism, my ear bled quite a bit. I had my spiritual prayer beads that were given to me by my spiritual teacher and guru around my neck. He asked me to remove the beads, so he could get the blood off, however, the blood had gotten on the white thread that the beads are strung onto. The beads are clear so the blood on the thread was very visible. He told me to take it home and put it in some bleach. I said I will although, that was the last thing I wanted to do, because the beads were specially blessed and prepared for me by my teacher, so I wanted to keep them in the condition that they were given to me. Before leaving the shop, I closed my eyes, took a breath, and began praying to Jesus, Moses, Buddha, G-d, the angels, and all my loved ones in heaven including Talia, to all help restore my beads to their original condition, without the blood. When I took my necklace off at home, to see if I could clean it, there was no sign of blood. This was not only confirmation that prayers are answered, but also reaffirmed my faith. if a blood-stained thread, can be made clean by Divine power and love, that same Divine power can touch my body and heal it from any and all illness. Of course, to be healed has to be part of my destiny, tho the possibility for healing is there, and so as I prepare to enter yet another treatment cycle, I hold firm that the treatment will do what it’s supposed to, giving me back the health I once had, and who knows? Maybe one day down the road, I will not be dependent on a wheelchair. No matter what, I will be happy and full of faith, for all that is and all that is yet to come. Tonight, I had another celebration with my two best friends, complete with a beautiful homemade cake decorated in editable make-up , so until I am well, as Talia would say, “Make-up is my wig.” no matter what the outcome, I am truly blessed to have amazing friends, lot of love, a heart full of faith, and I am thrilled to be one year closer to 40!